Stream of consciouness - just for you Brandon :P

I meet Josh for the first time tonight and he tells me he likes me.. we had been talking a lot over texts and myspace but thats it... and yeah.. idk i'm not freaked out, but i guess i'm scared i'll end up how i did when Kane left me. i guess i'm scared to put myself out there, afraid to get hurt. I never thought i would be like that... ever. and now i am. I'm scared to fall for anyone... does that mean i'm not ready for a relationship or am i being stupid? :[ I dont know what to do, i mean i could wait and see how it goes, but like... thats what i tried with john and look how that turned out (see first entry for story)... :/ urf. Help m e.... please? i need advice... people told me to give it time, but i miss the touch of someone that cares for me.. idk.. its hard to explain... i dont want to become desperate. I dont know if i'm ready for a relationship, i was feeling up to it Friday night.. its now Tuesday night... and idk... now that its here.. i'm like oh shit!....as i am with most things... :/ help....seriously... gimme your thoughts.